progress

Well since I wrote what I would do today yesterday, I decided I should follow through with a post on how I did.

I made 2 eggs this morning but only ate one.
I had my banana for lunch and drank my lemonade.
I had my wrap for dinner.
I still have the munchies so need to find a healthy snack, probably an apple or orange.

I did oopsie though. A customer left a piece of peanut butter fudge for me in one of my rooms today, I ate it and it was delicious. Another customer left chocolate covered raisins. I ate those too. Didn't even think of my healthy eating vow until after consumption :(
Anyways I didn't eat any oreos or oatmeal cookies or chips lol.

I did about 12 flights of stairs again today. Love working on the 3rd floor :) I use the stairs whenever possible at work.
I still need to run but know I won't be skipping that.

I was trying to follow a 4 day run week schedule but I just can't run 2 days consecutively. So I'm following the same schedule but just doing it every other day. I think this extends my marathon training from 16 wks to 18 wks but that's OK.

New Day

Tomorrow I will eat well.
I will make my home made lemonade to drink during the day.
I will have an egg with spinach, cheese, and salsa for breakfast
Dinner will be a spinach and hummus wrap
Lunch will be at work and I'll have either a banana or orange or both.

No oreos, No oatmeal cookies, No chips.

I will run at least 3 miles up to 5 miles.

Today I ate horribly, enough said.
I did about 12 flights of stairs for exercise. It wore my butt out!!!
I needed a nap after work. I'm still trying to motivate myself to do some more exercise before bed. Yea, not ideal but at least something.

I spent some time downstairs with Dave and Logan this evening while Dave got ready for going out. He worked on his van that he's selling most of the afternoon. I think it's ready for him to post the for sale sign. I really hope it sells!!
I have to put my car on the road this week. I requested Tuesday and Wed. off work for getting a wall built just to learn that the guy isn't coming Tues. but rather Wed. Sooooooooooo Tues. is car day :)

I'm so happy this past week is over. We were supposed to get snow on Monday so they canceled school. Snow didn't come until AFTER school would have been out so they wasted yet another snow day. Then Tuesday-Thursday were real snow days. Then Friday was a delay. I had to call in late for work on Friday and my whole day was thrown off. Next week Logan has Monday and Friday off. I'm so ready for full weeks of school again.
I got paid again and still haven't even made as much as I used to make babysitting. I'm seriously bummed over this!!!! It's time for a new job. I'm still applying everywhere, trying to get a daytime job but it's just not happening!!! Soooooooooo Frustrated. I thought of asking Amy and Jeremy for my babysitting job back, at least I had weekends off then. AND I made $150/wk which isn't happening at this job. I'm just trying to decide if I hated babysitting more than this.... I'll keep thinking on it for a while. I love not having extra kids ALL. DAY. LONG.

:: Owl's Roost Rumble ::

:: Owl's Roost Rumble ::

this is my goal first half marathon.
I've set goals before and really hoping that this one is it!!!
I've got to commit.

End of year reflections

It's time for my end of year reflections.
My exercising has suffered greatly especially the second half of this year.

I experienced a lot of life changes that really stressed me even to the breaking point. I became depressed and started the downward spiral into depression. I don't want to get into any details on my blog as to the why's but it was a definite challenge to 2010!!
I got a grip on the depression now.
I have started thrift store shopping for clothes for me and find that I really do love having a varried wardrobe. I am working on my image. I want to look and feel good to myself and to those around me. I am giving up the frumpy housewife scenario.
I'm done with oversized t-shirts and sweats as my every day wardrobe, these are PJ's.
I have a nice selection of fitting t-shirts and T-top exercise shirts. I'm getting more long sleeve t's and even button up shirts. I even have pants now, not just sweats.

I've been eating pretty good for the most part. Sometimes I eat too much of the crappy sugar stuff but I don't feel the NEED for it. I just don't want to discipline myself and I need to work on that discipline.

Exercise, yea I mentioned it suffered greatly. I'm averaging 2-3 times a week of working out right now. THAT WILL CHANGE!! I do take stairs at work and even make extra trips for myself for the fitness aspect so I haven't completely picked back up the sedentary life.

I've been doing great with my internet addiction. I still get on the pc every day but don't spend all my free time on it. I now only have facebook, triadmommies, and motivated mamas that I keep up with. And my facebook is rather slow because I have so few friends and family active on it. I don't need to keep up with everyones activities.

I feel strong mentally going into 2011.
I will continue to work on my diet and really try to adopt cleaner eating still.
I will make myself get back up to at least 20 min's exercise a day 6 days a week.
I will continue to limit internet time
I will look for more satisfying work which is also compatible with Daves and Logans schedules
I will get dressed every single day and continue to reject the "frumpy housewife" days
I will consciously spend more quality time with my husband whom I dearly love and do not want to take advantage of.


Right now we are decluttering our house. It's a big job. We've moved a lot of furniture around and have made the decision to stay in this house rather than moving again. I am happy with the decision. Today we also got a freezer thus the organizing started in the kitchen. We then moved our bedroom around and made room for the kitchen table. Yea I know this is weird but we are preparing to put up a wall to make our bedroom smaller and the other half will be a breakfast nook for the kitchen table. This room once was two rooms before and someone had taken out the wall that we are now going to put back up.
I got my puppy which I love dearly though don't appreciate the challenge of potty training. We will be putting up a cheap fenced in area so I can keep him outside for long enough to poop because he loves to come in then do his business. Not happy!!

heading downward

Yep I've been on a downward spiral lately. By lately, I mean over the past several months.
I've gained back some weight where I'm back at an average of 118 lbs
I've been on an emotional roller coaster with more dips than climbs.
I'm now back to square one and working on "ME" because me is all I have that I can rely on and I don't want to be disappointed by that person I see in the mirror. I am at this point disappointed in myself.
My sugar addiction that I fought so hard to break is back, which means I must break it again. Holiday time is upon us and it is the hardest time in the world to try to break that addiction. I'm going to work on that though.
I have two current goals. Keep myself exercising and don't eat a lot of sugar items.
I'm happy that I haven't picked up soda again. I still love to drink my water so I haven't gone completely backwards. I still get my sleep but with my marriage being rocky and trying real hard to make time for "couple time" it's real hard not to sacrafice the sleep. Last night I was up til midnight. I'm never up that late anymore!!! I had to take a nap this morning just to feel like I can function. Now I need to exercise.

I hate my weight training. I really try to love it but I just can't. I hate doing it though I do feel a great sense of accomplishment when done.
My current plan of action: Jackie Warner save me!!!! I tried to get back into CLX (Chalean Extreme) last week and made myself do it every day except the last. I can't do it this week so I'll be starting Jackie Warners one on one video for the week. After this week I'll re-evaluate. I might just have Dave show me how to use his universal gym thingy. I think he'd like that, but me being so little and him being so much larger than I, I just don't see how the machine can be set up where we can both use it comfortably.
I have no problem with cardio. My biggest problem is all I want to do is run but I can't do that on consecutive days or I get completely worn out.
I'm going to take out one of my WATP videos and my Jackie Warner and make myself do them. Jackie Warner is only 15 or 20 min's and WATP can be as little as 20 min's. I can fit in 40 min's. Time isn't my issue, though boredom does become an issue.
I hate my job. I have been concentrating all my spare time in job hunting and it is just no fun and frustrating. I sooooo want a new job to come through. I pray about this on a daily basis because I do want to be happy in my work. I think my unhappiness in my work is spilling over into my personal life and that is just no good, no good at all. Dear God please let me get a job that I can at least tolerate!! OK post done for today.

PayBox

PayBox

lets see if this takes.
paybox appears to be an alternative or competition for paypal.
I have a lot of WAHM friends so this definitely sounds like a good thing.
I know the last service that came out did good with honoring free $$ giveaways so I'm optimistic for this one as well. Who can sneeze at $50 free.

IIIIII'M Running

again, still? somewhere in there.
I signed up for a 10K and I'm not flaking out on this one. It's tomorrow :)
I picked up my awesome race packet today. I did get a t-shirt which surprised me as I only registered yesterday and was way late for the guaranteed t-shirt cut off. I also got a cook book and reusable grocery bag. I loved my race packet!! The t-shirt is an awesome lime green which I will proudly wear to Logan's soccer game after my race.

I had been doing pretty good picking up my running again and had some routes around the neighborhood all scoped out for the upcoming weeks....then my son got jumped in the neighborhood.
I no longer felt safe running outside alone in the neighborhood. I don't feel safe running alone and don't have any runner friends, I'm not a social runner anyways. Sooooooo I moved it inside onto my treadmill. All my runs are exclusively on the treadmill now. All I need is a decent mp3 player that will actually play using it's battery now. I've topped out at 5 miles on the TM before I get too bored and jump off. I can't wait to see how I do on this 10K.
I've come to the realization and accepted the fact that I am a penguin. I enjoy running much more when I'm not trying to go fast. This will be my first race trying to keep that in mind. I still want to go fast but I feel better when I go slow. I want to feel the way I feel when I'm slow but be fast lol. Though it seems I must pick and choose so I am choosing slow and happy rather than fast and out of breath.

I've been eating horrible lately. I'm addicted to pop tarts *hide*
There I admitted it, now to break it. Today I didn't eat any pop tarts. I ate fantastic actually and I'm super proud. Nothing processed except about 4 mini pretzels from Logan's party mix stuff.
I did walk away the pounds 2 miles today. I've been real lazy with my work outs too. I've only been wanting to run or use my husbands recumbent bike. I need to bust out my videos and do them religiously again. OK done until tomorrow.

slump

I'm still working on learning to maintain my physical fitness and healthy eating without having to track. I refuse to count calories but have learned that I will always have to remain conscious of portion size and what I eat. I still ask myself "how much nutrition vs calories" if there are too many calories with not enough nutrition then I won't eat it, usually.
I get bored running. I love to run. Yep it's a vicious circle lol. I love how I feel after a long run but I'm oh so bored after 30 min's. I love how it makes me sweat and I know I'm killing mega calories thus shrinking those oooh so hated fat cells. I still can't seem to make myself go beyond 30 min's this season. So I run in 30 minute bursts. I am still a slow poke. I get in between 2.5 and 3 miles at a time. I want so badly to train for a half marathon in my mind, but when it gets down to actually doing it, NOPE, not happening.
I love all of my videos. I got too many so thinned out. I still have too many but just can't get rid of any more (the hoarder in me). I kept the ones that I'll use at least once every 3 months.
I have 4 categories: CLX (Chalean Extreme)/Jackie Warner (weights), Jillian Michaels/Biggest Loser (circuit), Leslie Sansone (low impact cardio), Hip Hop Abs/ Zumba (my dancy ones).
I didn't run my 10K this year like I had originally planned. I didn't train properly and we were going on a trip right after so I didn't wanna kill myself with the race. There is an 8K in 2 weeks that I'm debating. I want to do it but really can't afford it. Though I think I really need the race atmosphere at this time. I know I can do 8K which is just about 5 miles. Will I run more than 30 min's in a race? The race itself isn't for a great cause in my eyes so I don't know if I can get myself to spend the $30 to find out.
I've gotten out my raw books again to help me with my veggies and fruits. I've been slacking lately. I know it's time to concentrate more on that nutrition...again. I had swollen feet the other day as a reminder that I really need to do this for my HEALTH. I also need to get myself to a dr and get my numbers checked. U know those general physical things that I've NEVER had a complete one before in my adult life. I want to know my BP, cholesterol, weight vs build etc.

Freedom Run 2010 and Kigo

I just got home from this years Freedom Run. I had signed up for the 10K but chickened out at the last minute and went for the 2 miler again this year. My goal was to get a sub 20 minute 2 miler. I almost reached my goal. My finish time was 20:14, and I wore my new kigo star's :)
I'm not talking about shoes at the beginning though, this is dedicated to the volunteers for the race first. I love to run races. I don't stand a chance of winning any with a 10ish minute mile pace but I love the atmosphere and I can completely race myself. I did a LOT better than last year. It was easy to run the whole thing without a single walk break. What is it that makes a race what it is? What separates it from an ordinary run? It's the spectators, the other participants, the volunteers, and the organizers. It's amazing to see a race all put together and coming off so smoothly. I bet it doesn't seem smooth to the organizers when they are putting it together but they really got this Freedom Run down pat. I love it. I want to publicly thank anyone who has ever volunteered at a race for all you have done. You may see it as just holding a cup of water but if you weren't there holding that cup of water for me then I wouldn't be able to be running this race. You may think you are just standing around to be sure runners and walkers don't get obstructed by traffic but you keep us focused and whenever we see one of you our energy soars. THANK YOU.


Now on to my Kigos. I've been wearing them around the house for a bit over the past week. The first 2 days I was unsure if I was going to keep them. I ordered a size 7 as all the reviews I've read said that they tend to run small. I normally wear either a 6 or 6.5 shoe, depending on the make. Since they don't have half sizes I decided 7 would probably be best. They are loose. I have to keep the inserts inside them, which I did not plan to do, and I have to wear some light socks with them, which I also didn't plan to do. I had a difficult time finding some acceptable socks to go with them.
I ordered the stars because they are open on top of the foot and I want my feet to breathe as much as possible. I HATE SWEATY FEET! I like the mary jane style as it secures the shoe to my foot. These shoes arrived within 2 days of my order. They were shipped the very night that I had ordered. After I ordered I read a review that gave a discount and I contacted customer support asking about it and they had no problem applying the discount to my order, even though I ordered before knowing of the discount. They were super nice.
I took the shoe out of the box and first thing I noticed was that silly hook at the top of it. I read the instructions and learned that it was for storage purposes, and easy carrying. Well I did fold the shoes in half and play with the hooks but to be honest I won't be using them except maybe if I happen to decide to travel without wearing them I'll hook them together so the pair stays together. I honestly plan to wear these for everything I wear shoes for though.
I then noticed the biodegradable storage bag, how innovative!! I was impressed and wondered why they aren't used more often instead of those throw away plastic bags. Thanks kigo for thinking of the world we live in and being a responsible manufacturer.
Even with the inserts my arches don't feel overly supported and obstructed. My feet can breathe and they really made my 2 miler a breeze. I really do want to try a size 6 but I'm still afraid they may be too small. Though maybe someday if they are offered in a store I can get to at least I'll be able to try them on.
These shoes soles are super flexible and they seem very durable. I am going away to the beach this weekend, and to the mountains next. We will be strolling the beach together and hiking some trails together and of course doing some running at both places!!! My new kigos and I will be doing a lot together over the next several months. After our travels we will be training for our first half marathon together :)

new pic

I'm finally adding a new pic. I don't look too thrilled but hey, it's no fun taking a picture of yourself. Though I do want to show that I really am still on the healthy path in my life :) Nothing speaks louder than a picture online.

I got my new shoes and hope to wear them for my 10K on Saturday. Gotta try them out with running today or tomorrow first. I just may be wearing my Nike's for one more race.
I love loafing around in the new ones. They are a mary jane style kigo and so airy compared to a sneaker. I'm just not sure about the size of them. They are great for loafing around in so I am keeping them. They may be too loose for running. I wanted to take the inserts out for my running but I can't do that. I have to keep the inserts AND wear a sock. I may eventually get a size smaller so I can take out the insoles and not wear socks for my running. I really hate having my feet covered and tampered with.

I am NOT ready for this 10K race on Saturday. I will push myself as hard as I can go and hope to run the whole thing but I think I will be doing a run/walk routine by the end. I'm still excited though. I really did think that for my 1 yr running anny race I'd be ready for 10K. I didn't anticipate taking several months off from running.