still living

I haven't been very dedicated to my healthier lifestyle lately. I'm working on getting back on track-- AGAIN.
That's the great thing about lifestyle changes. You have to hop back on track over and over again because you realize you've been just messing up way too much.

The 4th of July was great. We had a family reunion and a lot of food. BUT (be warned, here's my excuse) Logan wouldn't let me eat as soon as we got there, which we were very late. By the time I was able to eat all the meat was gone....I couldn't believe it, just GONE. I did have some good salads and there was mac&cheese but not really anything great on the health food front. The desserts were TO DIE FOR!!! This family really loves to bake!!!! Yep I had my share, for about a month all in one day. I did drink water though lol.

I didn't get my camping or my hiking done over the weekend. I sat on my butt in a car for a good portion of it. I actually got a pinched nerve in my hip which shot pain down to my ankle from sitting wrong in the car. I was a real whiney baby!!!

Today I did C25K week 5 day 1 pushing a stroller. I took the little one I watch and we went running while my own little one slept and Dave was still home to watch him. It felt good to get out. I got my new MP3 player yesterday and just had to use it. I love the C25K podcast!!!! I've got all of them on there though might remove weeks 1-4 as I know I won't need them and if I do need them in the future I can just download them again. I'll be getting my new running shoes any day now!!! I really need them tomorrow so I can run with them on thursday. Saturday will be a 20 minute run and I want to have another short run with the new shoes before then. I just may do my 20 min's in my current shoes though my right foot was hurting today because I know my shoes are just worn right out. My other shoes are newer but they hurt my feet just to walk in them so I can't use them for running at all.

I did chalean extreme last night. I haven't done it in quite a while and I really need to keep myself doing it. I do like the program but I've been just slipping a lot over the past month or so with my exercise. Yes I still do a lot more than I did before I started this lifestyle but not doing as much as I feel I should. I don't think at least 30 minutes a day 6 days a week is too much for me. I should be able to commit to at least that.

I am getting better at making healthy choices with food. I still love my sugar but I know how to say no to it now without going through severe withdrawal. As long as I keep myself pumped up on fruits and veggies my sugar cravings are ok.

My weight went back up to 112 but I refuse to move my tracker back in that direction. I will lose that 2 pounds again this week!!! Gotta love the fresh veggies coming out of gardens now. I have tons of cukes that need eating, I have to peel them because the peels are BITTER. I usually like to keep the peel on because my mom always taught me that the peel was the healthiest part of a fruit or veggie....wonder how true that is???? any input???

My step kids are all moved to Atlanta. That was a stressful move for everyone. I'm glad their mom isn't so close anymore but I will certainly miss the kids. We have to figure out our visitation and all that fun stuff as time goes on. I know she wants their dad out of their lives but that just isn't gonna happen. She wants his money but not his presence...I feel she should be grateful that he loves his kids and wants to be an integral part of their lives. He doesn't complain about giving her money, and gives her extra each month (which I disagree with). I feel he gets taken advantage of all in the name of guilt for not being there for his youngsters. I really am torn being the step-mom. I try to let them raise their kids their way and I try to support him through all his "helping" her out but I don't like letting him get walked all over too. Whenever I say something he takes it as me not wanting him to support his kids. Which I DO want him to support his kids, I DON'T want him to support his x-wife. There is a difference!!! and that's why there is child support. He pays generously so why does he have to fix her car, or provide ALL their transportation, or fix her furnace etc..... ok I'm done on that note for now. Just had to write it down and get some of it out.